February 15, 2011

i think i just realized...

When I was younger I did cartwheels in the front yard, I built forts in the woods, or I patrolled the streets on my bike with my best friends along side. I had time to experience and learn and grow. Now, it feels like I am playing life according to the rules of time management. I have to take a step back, and learn who I am all over again.

And through this experience I have found out some things I never knew or wanted to admit about life concerning beth jasper:

-I think I just realized that I am not as good of a driver as I thought- actually, I am a horrible driver. If you get in a car with me wear your seatbelt.
- I have hereditary faults and limited talents, I am a Scalawag. And I am almost okay with that.
- & I would have never admitted this one before now, but YES, its true, We Texans are 110% infatuated, consumed with our Lone Star State. Most of us would acknowledge that everything north of Texas is Canada.  There is an overwhelming pride that LITERALLY everything is bigger & better in Texas. I don’t know where it came from, but every baby born in this state is programmed with it. --So I think I have stumbled upon some unsorted through feelings for my homeland. Well world, Love is such a silly game we play, but “I’m in love and I don’t care who knows it!” 
I had no idea that I would be back in Texas so soon, but “God plants His saints in the most useless places. We say—God intends me to be here because I am so useful. Jesus never estimated His life along the line of the greatest use. God puts His saints where they will glorify Him, and we are no judges at all of where that is.” – My Utmost

these are a few things I have just realized... & I have a long way to go!